running scared. don't follow me.

just when i think i've made my escape, my past is waiting around the next turn.

it hits me so hard, and i feel it all.

as it shatters, all the pain, fear, anger, and sadness are let loose.

i'm not as invincible as i thought i was. 

i'm only human.

too human.

i'll do everything possible to keep my past out of my present.

even if it kills me.

& to a few certain someones:

-i'd do absolutely anything to see your face again. i've only gone once to visit, but i hope you understand how much it hurts to know you're that close but out of my grasp. 

-i'll never let you hurt me again like before. there's nothing between us but air anymore.

-you'll never fully understand how much you mean to me, even if i carved it into your brain. the tip of my tongue has never felt so heavy...

1 word destroys me & 3 words complete me.